Thursday the 10th

Go to youtube and check these 3 Fleetwood Mac songs out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E-cxtm6JJv4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E-cxtm6JJv4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m-4BojWdjRE&feature=related

All of these songs bring back some really good memories and have special meanings to me. Some from my teenage years and some from my adulthood. An incredible guitarist Lindsey Buckingham is. I really need to get back to playing my guitar more. Well the med situation is going well. I increased the level of herbs that I am taking for my anxiety and nerves and they are helping out quite a bit. AT least I don't feel like I am loosing all control. Next pain med prescription will be 10 less than this week. No problem.

Monday December 8

Life is so much better. I am having some problems with my anxiety and focus right now with the taper. I am thinking that I might need to get something a little more for the anxiety. Right now the daily dose this week is going 8 Oxy total daily with 3 Clorazipate and 8 Vistral. I am also taking some Chinese herbs in capsul form and tea also to help with my anxiety and to try to keep me calm. Physical therapy has started and so far so good. I am doing small neck movements and arm exercises. It is amazing how weak my left side has become but it will keep getting stronger. More updates soon. Thanks to everyone for their support! Don't be shy, drop me a hello because it helps me along.

p.s. Clark says Merry Christmas

This was December 5th.

After a screw up on my prescription I went through accute opiate withdrawls for the last 5 days. Chills, Shakes, cramps, nightmares, paranoia, loss of appetite, a couple of halucinations, little to no sleep, depression. Can you say "Train spotting?" On Tuesday I almost checked into the hospital but thought I would give it another day. I finally got a full nights sleep last night, the first since last Saturday and the day looked brighter than the day before. I went and saw an Herbalist and was designed some herbs to take while I am tapering off of the opiates. In about 4 weeks I'll be completly finished with the pain meds and will then do a complete body detoxification. The good news is that the my doctor and his staff all now know HOW to correctly prescribe my medicine so I don't go through the living nightmare that I have been going through these last 5 days. Angela saved my life from drinking and I honestly can say that she has saved my life with what just happened. If anyone wants to or needs to talk about any of their demons I am always here for you and willing to help in any way that I can.